Derek James

On Monday July 21st, 2008 at 8am in the morning i started experiencing excruciating pain in my lower abdomen. A few hours later about 10:30am I started having really heavy bleeding. Knowing that this was not a good sign I got Brittny and I ready head towards the E.R.

I tried calling Michael but he didn’t answer. Right afterwards I called Brittny’s dad Leif to let him know what was going on and that I was heading to the E.R. and that Brittny would be going with me. He was getting off early yesterday so he offered to give me a ride there. Thank you again Leif.

I didn’t get in right away. Was there for about two hours before I even saw the triage nurse. Her comments about my situation was “that’s not good”. Which of course made me panic. She then put my priority at 2 for urgency. I argued with her on that one because I didn’t see how me possibly having a miscarriage wasn’t something I should be seen immediately for.

About an hour later I was taken back and put into an E.R. room. They took my vital signs and mine were perfect. They strapped what I think is called a baby ekg to my stomach. After about 20 mintues of trying with that they couldn’t get any movement or heart beat from the baby. They then tried a regular baby doppler and still nothing.

They then scheduled me for an ultrasound to confirm what they were thinking. It turns out they were right. My baby was no longer alive. Because of how far along I was I had to be put on pictocin so that I could deliver the baby. The pictocin wasn’t working really well. They had to strip my memebranes…basically force my cervix open to help dialate me. I was in alot of pain. The whole time that it took me to deliver the baby I was clutching the necklace that Michael got me for Christmas.

At 6:32pm Monday July 21st, 2008 our baby boy Derek James Tilson was still born. 6:33pm Monday July 21st, 2008 he was pronounced dead. Probably the hardest things I have ever heard in my life. I couldn’t use the phone to call anyone for atleast half an hour because of them getting me cleaned up. Afterwards I immediately called Michael while they were scheduling another pelvic exam and another ultrasound to make sure everything was okay with me.

As you can imagine. We were both very torn up about this. We had just lost our baby. It was even harder on us that it was a boy. I didn’t go to work that night. While the physical pain is gone the emotional pain will never be.  We still miss him everyday and think of him. He’s our special angel and we love him very much.

Thank you for everyone showing their support for us. It really means alot to us. A very special thank you to Christi and Keith for picking me up from the hospital. You guys are both really good friends of mine. Thanks for so much for being there in our time of need.